When I first started to blog, I never thought in a million years that I would meet a whole new circle of people, who I have welcomed into my friendship circle. These new friends are bloggers.
I started my blog as a way of keeping an online diary of our life and as a place to put my memories. I had suffered over two years of severe PND and I hardly remember much of Tillys baby time. People quite often talk to me about things that happened when Tilly was a baby but I smile and nod my head pretending to know what they are talking about. Its easier that way.
So I started my blog just before Tillys 3rd birthday, for the first time I was excited about her birthday and I wanted the world to know it. It was a massive party and I was way out of my depth and to this day I still wonder why I invited 60 kids! 45 turned up and it was mayhem. I knew nobody would read my blog, it wasn't there for anyone else, it was there for me. I wrote on it for a couple of months before I really started to tell people, I told my boss at work and she was amazing. she encouraged me to write more about what I needed to get out of my head and she encouraged me to tell more people about my blog. Within a few months I had joined a blogging group on Facebook and that is where I met my first blogging community. It kind of snowballed from there and I now have met so many people through blogging. Not just bloggers but the lovliest PR people too. PR people that actually do take their time to read my blog and have become part of our lives. At a recent event a PR took time out to talk to me and say how sorry she was about something that had happened in my life, her kindness made me almost cry.
With the things that had happened over the past few months, I have found that these bloggers from my communities have been a rock, they have listened to me rant, they have listened to me virtually crying and they have offered invaluable advice. These people have been amazing and I really couldn't have got through this awful time without this support.
My confidence was crushed and as we had social services involved in my life, due to the problems with my daughter and grand daughter and I was told not to put personal stuff on the blog. I was criticized for having a blog and 'advised' not to include Tilly on the blog. But my blog is about Tilly and I am careful about the details that I put on the blog. The social worker said she typed in my blog name into Google and she got loads of details of my blog - Maybe its a blogger thing but I wanted to say 'yessssss, you found my blog on google - that's more page views for me' ;) The bloggers in my community helped me rebuild my confidence and they didn't judge that my blog was full of reviews and nothing personal on there, they didn't judge me for the problems in my family and some even offered to let me post on their blogs for anonymity.
Bloggers are a different kind of person, they offer empathy as most of us have all suffered the same problems or we are all suffering the same problems now. My world has opened up so much since I became a blogger and without the support of other bloggers, I don't know where I would be these days. Maybe I would of given up in the early blogging days.
Thank you to all my blogger friends.